Hello again my loves. I hope you are all well and happy wherever you are in the world?
I wanted to thank all of you who have reached out to check on me lately, it means so much to me. Please know that when I write personal things on here, it's not for sympathy or attention, but because I believe we should be open about mental health concerns. I think it's very important that we break the stigma and conditioning that most of us were likely raised into. Even now, I have people saying things to me like, "What have you got to be depressed about??" Please. It doesn't work like that!!
Yes, I am lucky to live where I do, and to be surrounded by such natural beauty. But you know what? My brain chemistry doesn't give a fuck about that. Years of trauma and abuse rewires your brain, (this is a scientific fact) and no amount of therapy or medication will fix that. So, I struggle, like so many of us do. And, I speak about my struggles openly, because for most of my life, I wasn't able to. I have had people reach out to me, privately, and thank me for this. Because it helps them to know that they are not alone. I have been told by more than one person, that when they face challenges, they ask, "What would Sinéad do?" - which is immensely flattering, but also a little terrifying. I certainly don't feel like I am any kind of a role model, considering the poor choices I've made in my life, haha! But, if my openness about my struggles helps even one person, then I know it's the right thing to do. And anyone that thinks I am "too much" for sharing, can kindly fuck off.
Anyway, these photos are all from February this year. That was another difficult month for me, particularly around Valentine's Day, and the anniversary of my last break up and heartbreak. It was inevitable that painful emotions would be dredged up, and especially difficult when the whole world seems to be celebrating love in all of the over the top, commercially driven ways. (Yes, I am bitter!) I did get out a few days though, I had some meals with friends, and otherwise tried to get out of the house and distract myself from the painful memories, which were causing me to spiral badly. So, I have a few food pics to share with you, because I was absolutely eating my feelings that month. As always, there are some beautiful views of my surroundings as well. Enjoy!
Inquisitive Sheep, Ardagh.
McFeeley's, Clonmany.
McFeeley's, Clonmany.
McFeeley's, Clonmany.
Delicious Breakfast at Nancy's Barn.
Delicious Breakfast at Nancy's Barn.
Delicious Lunch at Nancy's Barn.
Delicious Breakfast at Corner Cafe, Carndonagh.
Delicious Breakfast at the Market House Cafe, Clonmany.
Hello again my lovelies, how has your week been? I am still just about holding things together, and trying to catch up with everything I feel I should be accomplishing. These photos are all from January this year, so now I'm only about six months behind with this Blog, so that's... good? Better? Whatever, enjoy the views, haha.
I can say that I took my Christmas tree and other decorations down on the 6th January, which is the earliest I have EVER done that! I know that for many people it is traditional to take their decorations down by the Epiphany at the latest, but that was never the case in my family. We all hated doing it, and put off that chore for as long as possible. So, while that may seem like a really minor thing, I actually felt quite accomplished! Of course, then it feels like the house looks so bare, and even though the days were getting longer, January is still very dark in this part of the world. So I attempted to counteract that with some fairy lights, and lots of candles.
After procrastinating for a couple of years, I did finally set up a Vinted account that month, to attempt to make a little money, and have a clear out. I wish I'd started years ago, as it is a little bit addictive, haha! Or that might just be me and my ADHD/hyper-focus/obsessive compulsive personality. I think I have mentioned before about my sentimentality, and how I have held onto pretty much everything throughout my life. I simply could not bear the thought of getting rid of things that have always meant so much to me, which has meant that I have kept everything, and moved it all with me over the years. However, knowing that I am able to pass something so cherished onto another good home, where things may be used and loved for many years to come, is a good feeling. And if I am able to make a little money too, even better! So, I have been having a purge of many items, and every time I sell something, I need to get out of the house to go to the Post Office, and the exercise is another bonus.
There really isn't much more to tell you about January this year. My mental and physical health was/is still not good, so I didn't get out as much as I would have liked. I did have some doctor appointments to get to, and those post office errands to run, so I tried to make the most of those days. It was a cold and wet start to the year, and we even saw some snow, which is not common in this area. As you can see, I did get to enjoy some lovely views from my windows too, which I am always so grateful for. I honestly don't know where I would be without those, but I survived another month, and prayed that 2026 would be easier for me.
Hello my loves, and happy July. I hope that you have all been doing well? I know it's been a long time since I've written. Truthfully, I am just about hanging on by a thread. 2026 has been another tough year so far, and that has taken a toll on both my mental and physical health. I can say that I am still here, however, and I have some more photos and videos to share with you. I know that some of you have been missing my views! (All three of you that read my Blog anyway, haha!) These were all taken over the Christmas and New Year period, 2025.
Off to meet the girls.
Venison Steaks!
I got back from England on the 20th December, and my lovely friend Avril kindly gave me a lift back from the airport. Later we met up again for some drinks at the Ballyliffin Townhouse, along with Avril's sister and niece, whom I also know. I also bumped into one of my cousins and some of his friends, and was invited to a late dinner down at the shore. I had planned on going home and having an early night, having been up and on the go since 05:00 that morning... but they were serving venison steaks, and that seemed like too good an opportunity to miss. I was glad I went, it was great craic, and the meal was delicious!
Winter Solstice Sky.
Winter Solstice Sky.
Rain over Crockaughrim.
Pint at the Cruiskeen Lawn Bar, Buncrana.
On the 23rd of December I had to go to Buncrana to run some errands. It was nice to see the town all lit up for Christmas, and I got a few last things for my festive dinners. I was looking forward to some good meals, even though it was just me. To save time and effort, I had ordered turkey, ham, and stuffing from Nancy's Barn. They have been doing this for a number of years now, and it's a great option for those on their own, or who don't want to buy too much meat. Of course, I also bought lots of veggies for myself, and copious amounts of gravy. I prepped a few of the veggies in advance on Christmas Eve, and then settled in for a quiet evening.
Is this enough sprouts for one person?
Christmas Eve Sunset, 16:10.
In recent years, I had learned about the Icelandic tradition of Jólabókaflóð, or "Christmas Book Flood", where people give and receive new books, and spend a cozy night in on Christmas Eve, reading and sharing stories, new and old. As a book-nerd, of COURSE I loved the sound of this, and had celebrated it the last couple of years with my ex boyfriend. This year of course I was alone, and I didn't have a new book, but I still made a point to enjoy it. I re-read an old favourite, that comes out every Christmas, and basked in the glow of nostalgia and Christmas lights.
A must-read each Christmas!
A quiet Christmas Eve.
Christmas Day dawned bright and sunny and beautiful, which was perfect, as I had planned on taking a walk on the beach. I would have gone even in bad weather, but it was more enjoyable this way. I strolled along the shore, walked over the cliffs, and explored some rock pools. I also came home with a bag full of sea glass and pretty rocks and shells, which was like a wonderful Christmas gift to myself! Then I came home and had caviar for brunch. Who says you can't enjoy the holidays on your own?!
Christmas Day, Pollan Strand.
Christmas Day, Pollan Strand.
Christmas Day, Pollan Strand.
Christmas Day, Pollan Strand.
Having said that though... I did have a bit of a mishap later that day. I was going to start cooking dinner, and was very much looking forward to it. I got changed into a nice dress and heels, because again, even if I'm on my own, that doesn't mean I can't look nice! However... walking downstairs again, I managed to trip near the bottom. I tried to correct myself, but my heels caught on the edge of the step, and I fell straight down onto my knees on the tile floor, from three steps up. As you might imagine, this was a heavy landing, and very painful! My knees were badly bruised and swelled up significantly. I also managed to rip half a toenail off, though I did not even notice that until later, my knees hurt so much! And before you ask, no, I hadn't been drinking, other than one glass of mulled wine.
Christmas Dinner for one.
So. Instead of the big, elaborate meal I had planned on making, I had to rethink and downsize a bit, since standing to prep and cook was extremely painful from then on! I definitely drank some more mulled wine after that, but I think I deserved it! And to be fair, it was still a large meal for one person, since as usual, I had overestimated my stomach's capacity, haha. And there was plenty of food still, so I had different variations of a Christmas Dinner for a few days!
Boxing Day Bloody Mary, and Stranger Things!
All in all, other than my clumsiness, and banged up knees, it wasn't a bad way to spend Christmas. It wasn't the first time I'd spent it alone, and I'm sure it won't be the last. At least this time I was here, in Ballyliffin, with my beautiful views, and I got to walk on the beach and blow the cobwebs away. The next few days were more of the same, although I was struggling to walk a bit, so mostly stayed indoors and admired the views from my windows.
Boxing Day skies.
NYE Rainbow.
Rain over Glashedy.
New Year's Eve was another quiet night in. I like the old tradition of opening the back door of your house just before midnight, to let the old year out, and then on or just after midnight, opening the front door to let the new year in. I also meditated on the past year, which as you know, was a very difficult one for me. But there I was, at the end of it. I might not have survived unscathed, but I did survive.
Here's to 2026!
Here's to 2026. It has to be a better year, right? RIGHT?!
